When I was really sick I remember thinking whatever this is it has literally impacted every part of my body and every system it operates. After being diagnosed I started to realize that it not only impacts every part of you, it impacts every part of your life. And in healing I have come to realize it impacts even much more. It is impacts you physically, mentally, emotionally, socially, financially, politically, career, family, future...it simply impacts who you are and the legacy you want to leave.
Recent challenges that go much beyond on my health have demonstrated that I have a long way to go to full healing and that the ramifications will be lasting. I can allow these challenges to jade me, wear me down or scar me. Or I can take each one, deal with it and learn so that I may help myself and others. To do that I must take the lesson for each battle and find what is good in. So that is what I plan to do because here is what I have learned:
2) Because Lyme eluded myself and doctors for so long, I have potentially been sick with many illnesses and tried every trick in the book. If anything, I have a sense of what we can do as individuals to heal and more importantly, what works and what doesn't.
3) When you body is as weak as mine was, it is very sensitive or receptive to everything you do, good and bad. It gives a very true sense fo what impacts our body and how some things, like stress (that are often hard to realize) are doing much more damage than we can imagine.
4) That if I can take all that this disease is teaching me and share it, I may not only help someone else, I can remind myself that there is purpose in all bad that happens and keep moving closer to full recovery.
So although, I have come a long way, I still have a long way to go. Progress is so slow and minuscule that I cannot reflect by days or weeks, I need to reflect in months, to see how far I have come. And I have come a long way. Full recovery is my goal so I have no plans to stop here.
So instead of providing updates on my recovery, my status and what symptoms persist, I have decided to turn this whole thing around. I am going to share what I have learned, especially all the things I plan to forever implement in my life as a result. If people can take something from it then great, but for me it will help me focus on the end goal of health, not where things stand right now. It will also hopefully distract me from al the small hurdles that seem to accompany this process.